100 days and 100 Nights
Calmness is sparse as anxiety courses,
thoughts gasping for certainty.
Time imposing,
looming, laughing... taunting.
Wretchedness,
disdain induced from such an inanimate existence.
Sweat overwhelms the brow,
the stinging eye relents.
Clenching, clawing, adrift in torment,
the mind pressing against itself.
Quiet,
it comes.
Clarity,
a beacon.
Grasp it,
listen- follow.
What conquest is sought?
Unknown,
warm and comforting...benign.
Elicit change,
an adventurous spirit,
enemy of most.
Breathe,
fall into self,
heavy with being,
be.
Contentment is encroaching,
desperation not willingly sequestered.
Lunging from within the bowels of fear,
regaining its position of torture.
It speaks in uncertain tone,
"Failure".
Quite possibly,
a possibility.
Not ever.
Another eventual wave of uncertainty,
treading.
This cycle of dying reason,
embraced in courage.
Breathing.
100 days and 100 nights,
then time to let go.